I’m alone.

I never thought it would happen. I constantly surround myself with my friends and family and immerse myself in them and our relationships. 

But here I am: I’m alone. It’s not the kind of alone where you’re not around people. It’s the heart-wrenching, mind-numbing kind of loneliness. The kind of loneliness where at first you can’t stop crying and then there aren’t any tears left. 

My loneliness stems from my inadequacy. No matter how hard I try, I won’t be that person, the one someone puts before others in their life. I’ll always be second to someone. It’s time to make my peace with it. I just wish it didn’t hurt so much. 

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